I apologize to all that have been looking here for updates and pictures of Olivia. This is my 3rd week back at work and I just don't seem to have the time for anything anymore! On top of wanting to spend all my "free" time with Olivia, I also just joined a gym and spend massive amounts of time trying to prepare everything for the next day. I swear I spend everyday trying to just get ready for the next. My life is currently crazy and I hate it. I must find stability and find it soon because I am not happy with my current situation at all. It seems like everything I am passionate about has taken a backseat to my job, which I don't even like....my baby, my camera...heck, even my daytime TV shows. I just wish I could be home with my baby and being the mom I truly want to be. I currently feel like I am failing as a mother. It is the worst feeling I have ever felt. I tried to take pics of her this past weekend and she just looked sad in all the pictures. Just see for yourself. She misses her mommy :(