Well, we really have a reason to celebrate and cherish the new year...Olivia has really made life so exciting and worth living to it's fullest! We are seriously in awe of every little thing she does. She grows and changes so fast! We spent the new year at home, had a good meal and rung in the new year with the whole family in bed! Thank God for the king size bed, it is a perfect fit for the 3 of us! And to be totally honest, I did not miss the parties or crowds that we normally endure during the new year. This was far more mellow than our typical Las Vegas new year!

Unfortunately, all fun must come to an end and I returned to work on January 2nd, leaving me with little time to focus on anything but Olivia in the evenings. No time for the blog, no time for our "photo sessions", no time to do anything but hold my little girl, by choice of course! I really did not want to return to work or send Olivia to daycare, but you have to do what you have to do to survive. The first day back was rough, but Olivia did really well in daycare according "the lady" that watches her. Me, on the other hand, not quite so good. But we will adjust and we will get into our own routine. The worst part is that I feel so cheated. I feel cheated of my daughter's childhood. My favorite part of our day together has always been the morning...she is soooo happy, always smiling and laughing. Now "that lady" gets to see all those beautiful smiles and precious giggles. I am scared of missing all her "firsts"...the first time she rolls over, sits up, crawls, walks, EVERYTHING! I am beyond devastated. Chris always tells me..."you knew you would have to go back to work, we had discussed this", but I NEVER knew it would be this painful and difficult. I love her more than words can say and I don't want to miss a thing.

Excuse me while I wipe my tears away :(